24' reminders

 Blessed days coming, for us. Hello mi

Before I continue living the new year, I just want to jot down events of 2024 that I think I should keep in mind, for kesedaran diri purpose and somehow remind me of why I am here. I am here, to serve the people, while the pay is peanut (Increment 2025 please 10 percenttt or more, amin amin!), while the work is stress inducing (I had migraine attacks hm), but just a reminder, you're dealing with lives, you're dealing with QoL of someone's family. Semoga all of my steps, all of my words, all my actions diberkati dan diredhai. Amin

I should have asdfghjkl it down whenever I have something to, right after. Instead of thinking of it, the whole night. Now I can't remember any.

Anyway recently I had one bedridden patient, turned 100 years old this year. She had dementia, so just to introduce this aunty, SHE SHO CUTEE. I was working 12 hours night shift on the new years... I spent my time wishing all the patients happy new year and all kind of wishes.. and this aunty was alone, she was saying something like she wants to go down to socialize with her friends, (I guess the entertainment room at her nursing home was at ground floor? But now shes in the hospital lol). I did accompanied her for awhile and when the time for new year count down, I positioned her bed to face the window... and we watched the fireworks together... I don't really remember it, but I guess twas sparkling? This year they said the fireworks were at KL Tower instead of KLCC, so we can see most of it. And. Guess. What. Aunty keep asking me to find her specs, because she said she lost it, might have fall when we positioned the bed... so I don't really get to see it full (she doesn't have any specs, just denture, her sight was 2.0 10 minutes before). Anyway, aunty said the fireworks were colorful and everything. We sang happy birthday song together too lol. Happy 100th birthday, aunty.. Once done, I changed back the bed position and checked her vital signs, wounds and everything before I moved the bed... Just trying to talk to her before letting her to sleep, how was the fireworks, we should see it again next year.. Promised, pinky promised, linked. Not even 10 minutes after I checked on her, she was fumbling with her dentures, its time for breakfast (approximately 15 minutes after the midnight firework yes yes...) She forgot everything. What firework?

Anyway happy new year :) I just had an interview, legit the first ever interview for work/school (I was kinda recruited into my current position so I skipped the interview part before) I ever ever had in my life, like serious one. It was an interview for a kinda same position as my current one but in a different department and a different hospital (Hint: it's a largest quaternary level centre, as they claimed la). 

To be honest, I'm still contemplating. I want to study, is it because I don't want to work or I just want to..? It's like I'm forcing it on myself or.. How do you know yourself?