20 Jan 2025
Upgrade efforts
14 Jan 2025
24' reminders
Blessed days coming, for us. Hello mi
Before I continue living the new year, I just want to jot down events of 2024 that I think I should keep in mind, for kesedaran diri purpose and somehow remind me of why I am here. I am here, to serve the people, while the pay is peanut (Increment 2025 please 10 percenttt or more, amin amin!), while the work is stress inducing (I had migraine attacks hm), but just a reminder, you're dealing with lives, you're dealing with QoL of someone's family. Semoga all of my steps, all of my words, all my actions diberkati dan diredhai. Amin
I should have asdfghjkl it down whenever I have something to, right after. Instead of thinking of it, the whole night. Now I can't remember any.
Anyway recently I had one bedridden patient, turned 100 years old this year. She had dementia, so just to introduce this aunty, SHE SHO CUTEE. I was working 12 hours night shift on the new years... I spent my time wishing all the patients happy new year and all kind of wishes.. and this aunty was alone, she was saying something like she wants to go down to socialize with her friends, (I guess the entertainment room at her nursing home was at ground floor? But now shes in the hospital lol). I did accompanied her for awhile and when the time for new year count down, I positioned her bed to face the window... and we watched the fireworks together... I don't really remember it, but I guess twas sparkling? This year they said the fireworks were at KL Tower instead of KLCC, so we can see most of it. And. Guess. What. Aunty keep asking me to find her specs, because she said she lost it, might have fall when we positioned the bed... so I don't really get to see it full (she doesn't have any specs, just denture, her sight was 2.0 10 minutes before). Anyway, aunty said the fireworks were colorful and everything. We sang happy birthday song together too lol. Happy 100th birthday, aunty.. Once done, I changed back the bed position and checked her vital signs, wounds and everything before I moved the bed... Just trying to talk to her before letting her to sleep, how was the fireworks, we should see it again next year.. Promised, pinky promised, linked. Not even 10 minutes after I checked on her, she was fumbling with her dentures, its time for breakfast (approximately 15 minutes after the midnight firework yes yes...) She forgot everything. What firework?
Anyway happy new year :) I just had an interview, legit the first ever interview for work/school (I was kinda recruited into my current position so I skipped the interview part before) I ever ever had in my life, like serious one. It was an interview for a kinda same position as my current one but in a different department and a different hospital (Hint: it's a largest quaternary level centre, as they claimed la).
To be honest, I'm still contemplating. I want to study, is it because I don't want to work or I just want to..? It's like I'm forcing it on myself or.. How do you know yourself?
31 Jan 2024
New Year 2024
and nothing about new me.
Hello :)
Still trying to manage my time better, why'd I have to attend so many app. I don't feel the need to go these follow ups sht, they don't give me new things. Definitely just wasting my time. I don't have much day off to begin with urgh. *I tried not to use urgh in this entry lol. Deleted few times but still ended up using it.
Btw currently the unit I'm working in kinda in shambles. Getting complains from everyone, everywhere and pretty much every time. Who is it to blame, BIG LOL. It just that it getting uncomfortable and embarrassing for me, because everyone even others from other department also knew about how problematic our unit is. Did I just use, OUR unit. Yes, that's why I'm getting the first second hand embarrassment. Guilty, we not playing with lives here. I'm out soon. I'm telling and announcing.
Nothing new. Still read a bit, jog occasionally, swim hmm only when I not lazy too lazy to rinse off the chlorine. Probably with try new gym and new sport (excited) this year. Still with target to study BIM up to level 2, I just couldn't waste my energy imagine going for level 3. So target for this year probably;
- New sport
- 20 books this year, reduced a bit from last year because I want to watch more movies hehe. Anyway I'm still using primarily the goodreads
- BIM
- Transfer, hopefully by mid-year
- Work study;
Okay then. Im typing this entry with lower part of my laptop screen blinking. WHY. It started today, like literally today morning when I'm watching Maestra. Anyway, looking forward to a blissful year!
Xoxo,
Anne