Train of empty words

 Yesterday was good until, I got scolded for something that don't think I deserved to get cursed, scolded for? Btw thank you sir, I learn a new info yesterday (D5% can somehow bring down the sodium level). I read some textbook and watch intensive fluid management videos for this!

Good coming September, I dont even know what im writing but yeah Hi Hello.

I'm not so good with letting go of things, of memories being scolded, so just want to rant to write to pass time (I have OSCE tomorrow so yeaa). Back to yesterday lol. I was working 6AM - 9PM, was Saturday went well until I picked up a phone call from this consultant saying bla bla, and I got scolded because I dilly dally a bit (I guess), trying to look up for the result hes saying. So I got scolded trying to justify the process behind, got cursed, and just whatever, received and carried on with the order. Driving back from work, I still think about it. Even woke up the next day, thinking about it. I STILL THINK ABOUT IT, thats why i'm writing. LOL.

Btw I rang him up today, to inform some stuff, and verify some. I heard 'Congratulation' from him before I could say anything. I was like 'Huhhh? Excuse me?'. Pardon me, I am very blurrr and slow individual especially when talking on the phone, dont kid me because I will take it seriously. And that's it, he just verified things and say thank you. And I replied with yeaa thank you Datuk. 

The end. 

I guess thats the end of the story. Hopefully I wont face any issue with him again

ps: 8 months in, still not there, my soul my spirit my will is not 

Nth comeback?

 After so long (laughing out so loud really), I just remembered my online diary some sort. Thought of starting again, writing I mean. Hello to myself, my future self, if you're reading this, just know that you started writing this post because you're on your monthly sensitive phase and Mek annoyed the fk out of you multiple times in just three hours, you're about to lose your calm and cry. 

Enough of that! My last post was two or three years ago? I'm not liking the layout of this page as much, but this sis forgot everything on how to change the margin, color, especially the link(!) and everything. Let just make do with it. It is what it is then.

Little life update, am done studying for bachelor's degree September 2022, that was last year btw but yet to graduate? Idk, its taking so long for our batch session but I guess its probably approximately maybe I'm not completely certain for sure that it scheduled to be held around November, I guess? November 2023, hopefully. Otherwise, I passed my licensing exam, and am now a licensed healthcare slave :) Started working early this year too, passed my 6 months probation period, was offered permanent position which I kind of reluctant to stay for long because the pay is just so not worth the workload (help needed, I really don't know how to negotiate). So salty about it to be honest, because I wasn't expecting such a big established institution would be bla bla bla yeah like that lol. Still, I choose this over the others because I thought I could learn a lot more and gain much more here, here I meant my dream unit :)

Anyway, am renting out because I'm definitely not going to drive more that 50 minutes one way daily so its 5 minutes drive to work. Adulting? That's yucks. Icky. I am still a homebody, and I don't consider rental as home so I just drive back to my parents whenever, else I'd feel very lethargic lol, as if I'm staying at a hotel? Get what I mean? I don't know, planning to work elsewhere, further, maybe in another 17 months, for better pay especially, broaden my horizon, burn some fresh flesh, yeah that's the plan for now. Kidding, two years in, I'm either applying for advanced diploma or applying to work overseas.

So much of a planner, not much of a executor here. Anyway, learning is a lifelong assignment, life itself is. Playing Jason Mraz - Hope You Have It All

Xoxo,

Till next time