Upgrade efforts

Had re-read my previous post, remember about my laptop screen blinking.. and fast forward until now I hasn't  fixed it. Just sent my laptop to get it changed (the screen), the technician said my screen wasn't commonly used (like I thought every laptop has a different one so what do you mean by that) that they had to order it from original manufacturer or supplier kinda thing so it will take awhile. So I just paid the deposit so they can place an order, and took my laptop back so I can use it while waiting (in case, I don't really use it anyway lol). So three days after, they asked me to send it back... so they can do their thing. One two three and four days later, I was informed they couldn't get the stock in time, so now we have to wait until CNY which will be two weeks later... for the screen to arrive. Daheck. I took it back, so I can rant like this. 

I want to scold them so bad, but what else can they do. 

I hate waiting game. 

I actually listed my laptop for sale, lol. More than half the price when I bought it (my parents paid), I thought it is still pricey... but some actually interested in buying? Woaa. Guyss, if you decided to proceed to buy... if I still feel very baik hati, I will probably give you minus RM500 from current listing price, or probably more if they're student? Lol, my mom just said whatever. 

Have you seen the not really new release, the laptop... I kinda want a new one but lol this is all NAFSU. Kinda want to get a new laptop, not a necessity, my current one work just fine. But Air? M3? Same colour as midnight blue... For an upgrade? New year new me new laptop hehe.

Updated book list (if any of my family reading this, my birthday is coming) :*)

1. Waiting Period Hubert Selby Jr.

2. Their Broken Knees Aleena Rose

3. The Red Palace

4. Temperature of Language Lee Kiju

5. Stationary Shop Marjan Kamali

6. Chasing River M.C. Sakala

7. The Good Part Sophie Cousens

8. The Burnout Sophie Kinsella

9. Priest Sierra Simone

10. A Song to Drown Rivers Ann Liang

11. Dixon Rule Elle Kennedy

12. Emotional Female Yumiko Kadota

13. The Beauty in Breaking Michele Harper

14. Four Seasons in Japan Nick Bradley

15. On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous

16. The Shape of Darkness Laura Purcell

17. The Fastest Way to Fall

18. The Book of Two Ways Jodi Picoult

19. The Bodyguard Katherine Center

20. The Maddest Obsession Danielle Lori

21. Monogamy Sue Miller

22. Body Keeps the Score

23. Games People Play Eric

24. Read People Like A Book

25. How to Kill Men and Get Away with It 

26. Painted Scar Neva Altaj

27. Was I Ever Real Naomi Loud

28. When You Read This Naomi Adkins

29. Breast and Eggs Mieko Kawakami

30. The Priority of the Orange Tree Samantha Shannon

31. This Is How You Lose the Time War Max Gladstone

32. Motion Sickness Lynne Tillman

33. All The Water in The World Eiren Caffall

34. I Who Have Never Known Men Jacquline Harpman

35. A Breath of Life Clarice Lispector

36. Please Look After Mom Shin KyugSook

37. Anxious People Fredrik

38. The House of the Spirits Isabel Allende

39. Kairos Jenny Epenbeck

40. Notes from Underground

41. The Posthumous Memoirs of Bras Cuba Machado de Assis

42. A Man Called Ove

My big younger brother bought me bookss last months, he just had his first out of country placement and will start being sent here and there for work. He just gave me his card and tell me to buy whatever while we (Lil bro, lil sis and me) walked around the store. There IS a full-sized restaurant inside the bookstore so yeaa I paid for the food lol. Idk how many books I bought, probably six or seven? Fact is; all still nicely wrapped. I will start reading later...  Wish bro enjoy his work (he did, he building a mini workshop in my parents unused store room) and had blessed time doing his work. Semoga banyak allowance and bonusses juga!

Ps I sent my request letter to the manager and director, so I am anxious, a bit.

Pss I paid for a pilates class, for 50 sessions? Glad I can share it with a guest (probably will be lil sis) but now I have to make serious effort to attend. Validity period of 12 months! Updates soon, wink. 

Xoxo

24' reminders

 Blessed days coming, for us. Hello mi

Before I continue living the new year, I just want to jot down events of 2024 that I think I should keep in mind, for kesedaran diri purpose and somehow remind me of why I am here. I am here, to serve the people, while the pay is peanut (Increment 2025 please 10 percenttt or more, amin amin!), while the work is stress inducing (I had migraine attacks hm), but just a reminder, you're dealing with lives, you're dealing with QoL of someone's family. Semoga all of my steps, all of my words, all my actions diberkati dan diredhai. Amin

I should have asdfghjkl it down whenever I have something to, right after. Instead of thinking of it, the whole night. Now I can't remember any.

Anyway recently I had one bedridden patient, turned 100 years old this year. She had dementia, so just to introduce this aunty, SHE SHO CUTEE. I was working 12 hours night shift on the new years... I spent my time wishing all the patients happy new year and all kind of wishes.. and this aunty was alone, she was saying something like she wants to go down to socialize with her friends, (I guess the entertainment room at her nursing home was at ground floor? But now shes in the hospital lol). I did accompanied her for awhile and when the time for new year count down, I positioned her bed to face the window... and we watched the fireworks together... I don't really remember it, but I guess twas sparkling? This year they said the fireworks were at KL Tower instead of KLCC, so we can see most of it. And. Guess. What. Aunty keep asking me to find her specs, because she said she lost it, might have fall when we positioned the bed... so I don't really get to see it full (she doesn't have any specs, just denture, her sight was 2.0 10 minutes before). Anyway, aunty said the fireworks were colorful and everything. We sang happy birthday song together too lol. Happy 100th birthday, aunty.. Once done, I changed back the bed position and checked her vital signs, wounds and everything before I moved the bed... Just trying to talk to her before letting her to sleep, how was the fireworks, we should see it again next year.. Promised, pinky promised, linked. Not even 10 minutes after I checked on her, she was fumbling with her dentures, its time for breakfast (approximately 15 minutes after the midnight firework yes yes...) She forgot everything. What firework?

Anyway happy new year :) I just had an interview, legit the first ever interview for work/school (I was kinda recruited into my current position so I skipped the interview part before) I ever ever had in my life, like serious one. It was an interview for a kinda same position as my current one but in a different department and a different hospital (Hint: it's a largest quaternary level centre, as they claimed la). 

To be honest, I'm still contemplating. I want to study, is it because I don't want to work or I just want to..? It's like I'm forcing it on myself or.. How do you know yourself?

New Year 2024

 and nothing about new me.

Hello :)

Still trying to manage my time better, why'd I have to attend so many app. I don't feel the need to go these follow ups sht, they don't give me new things. Definitely just wasting my time. I don't have much day off to begin with urgh. *I tried not to use urgh in this entry lol. Deleted few times but still ended up using it. 

Btw currently the unit I'm working in kinda in shambles. Getting complains from everyone, everywhere and pretty much every time. Who is it to blame, BIG LOL. It just that it getting uncomfortable and embarrassing for me, because everyone even others from other department also knew about how problematic our unit is. Did I just use, OUR unit. Yes, that's why I'm getting the first second hand embarrassment. Guilty, we not playing with lives here. I'm out soon. I'm telling and announcing. 

Nothing new. Still read a bit, jog occasionally, swim hmm only when I not lazy too lazy to rinse off the chlorine. Probably with try new gym and new sport (excited) this year. Still with target to study BIM up to level 2, I just couldn't waste my energy imagine going for level 3. So target for this year probably;

- New sport

- 20 books this year, reduced a bit from last year because I want to watch more movies hehe. Anyway I'm still using primarily the  goodreads

- BIM

- Transfer, hopefully by mid-year

- Work study; 

Okay then. Im typing this entry with lower part of my laptop screen blinking. WHY. It started today, like literally today morning when I'm watching Maestra. Anyway, looking forward to a blissful year!

Xoxo,

Anne

Train of empty words

 Yesterday was good until, I got scolded for something that don't think I deserved to get cursed, scolded for? Btw thank you sir, I learn a new info yesterday (D5% can somehow bring down the sodium level). I read some textbook and watch intensive fluid management videos for this!

Good coming September, I dont even know what im writing but yeah Hi Hello.

I'm not so good with letting go of things, of memories being scolded, so just want to rant to write to pass time (I have OSCE tomorrow so yeaa). Back to yesterday lol. I was working 6AM - 9PM, was Saturday went well until I picked up a phone call from this consultant saying bla bla, and I got scolded because I dilly dally a bit (I guess), trying to look up for the result hes saying. So I got scolded trying to justify the process behind, got cursed, and just whatever, received and carried on with the order. Driving back from work, I still think about it. Even woke up the next day, thinking about it. I STILL THINK ABOUT IT, thats why i'm writing. LOL.

Btw I rang him up today, to inform some stuff, and verify some. I heard 'Congratulation' from him before I could say anything. I was like 'Huhhh? Excuse me?'. Pardon me, I am very blurrr and slow individual especially when talking on the phone, dont kid me because I will take it seriously. And that's it, he just verified things and say thank you. And I replied with yeaa thank you Datuk. 

The end. 

I guess thats the end of the story. Hopefully I wont face any issue with him again

ps: 8 months in, still not there, my soul my spirit my will is not 

Nth comeback?

 After so long (laughing out so loud really), I just remembered my online diary some sort. Thought of starting again, writing I mean. Hello to myself, my future self, if you're reading this, just know that you started writing this post because you're on your monthly sensitive phase and Mek annoyed the fk out of you multiple times in just three hours, you're about to lose your calm and cry. 

Enough of that! My last post was two or three years ago? I'm not liking the layout of this page as much, but this sis forgot everything on how to change the margin, color, especially the link(!) and everything. Let just make do with it. It is what it is then.

Little life update, am done studying for bachelor's degree September 2022, that was last year btw but yet to graduate? Idk, its taking so long for our batch session but I guess its probably approximately maybe I'm not completely certain for sure that it scheduled to be held around November, I guess? November 2023, hopefully. Otherwise, I passed my licensing exam, and am now a licensed healthcare slave :) Started working early this year too, passed my 6 months probation period, was offered permanent position which I kind of reluctant to stay for long because the pay is just so not worth the workload (help needed, I really don't know how to negotiate). So salty about it to be honest, because I wasn't expecting such a big established institution would be bla bla bla yeah like that lol. Still, I choose this over the others because I thought I could learn a lot more and gain much more here, here I meant my dream unit :)

Anyway, am renting out because I'm definitely not going to drive more that 50 minutes one way daily so its 5 minutes drive to work. Adulting? That's yucks. Icky. I am still a homebody, and I don't consider rental as home so I just drive back to my parents whenever, else I'd feel very lethargic lol, as if I'm staying at a hotel? Get what I mean? I don't know, planning to work elsewhere, further, maybe in another 17 months, for better pay especially, broaden my horizon, burn some fresh flesh, yeah that's the plan for now. Kidding, two years in, I'm either applying for advanced diploma or applying to work overseas.

So much of a planner, not much of a executor here. Anyway, learning is a lifelong assignment, life itself is. Playing Jason Mraz - Hope You Have It All

Xoxo,

Till next time

Designing Goals :)

 Public holiday on weekday is the cutest! 3 weeks in, 5th semester. Doing good (think so).

Me got into this something ages before, but recently trying to get into it, seriously. Searched classes for it but, first dang too far away from my home. Second is the fee just not within my budget at all hehe. It's like RM600 for 13 sessions of 2 hours. Cost pretty much the same as my current mandarin lesson which is RM45 per hour. 

Lol wait I just realized its actually just half of it since it is two hours per session hahaha. Still not worth the petrol and mileage. Excuse the excuses. 

Still if me change my mind, it's called RC Deaf Mission Malaysia. You can study for certificate up to Level 3, if that matters. Another class I recently found out is #SIGNON but I don't know much regarding the fee. Both classes based in Selangor and Kuala Lumpur :) Within reach but still...

And hahaha this something is sign language! Bahasa Isyarat Malaysia (BIM) is it, since I'm living in Malaysia. Told my parents regarding this, but am trying to learn the basic through YouTube videos first. 

Me have been trying to write with my left hand during last semester break too hehe, like two weeks straight. By then, me can obviously see the changes from day 1, the improvement! Starting week 3, me got very lost, even with much things on my schedule. Then started to practice writing once in two or three days, once a week, biweekly and bimonthly bla bla. Meh, me just want to start again with left hand. 

Ultimate goal, one that I CANNOT fail... just because I took this subject as an elective, which require me to complete until Level 4, which means I have to take this subject for the next four semesters. I mean, me only have four semesters left for my degree so yea. I took Arabic I. So soon it will be Arabic II, Arabic III and Arabic IV hahahaha what a mess. To be very honest, me is very scared of Arabic since sekolah agama because me got punished, for not memorizing some verb, vocabs bla bla. First class of the semester was Arabic (literally! because them scheduled on Monday morning), and it was a disaster. I don't understand the joke, as of why this and that. So me is very passive in Arabic classes. Week 2, me still a little bit lost. Week 3 was kind of fine...?

I'm planning to buy Odonata flash cards! Obviously yes, it is it. Hanzi!

So basically, just trying to remind myself. I am challenging this 21 years old me to learn sign language, arabic, familiarize with left hand writing (prettily) and hanzi.

Don't forget to move around too! Since the PKP or PKPB, I haven't move much except for cycling (thanks stationary bike). So will try to resume the morning walk, jog or run lol, my knees been spoiled(?) for too long already. Btw, after nth of hospital visits and I don't how many tubes of blood specimens taken, the doctors said its not SLE because only 3/11 signs ticked off haha.

And first time, in my whole 21 years of living, breaking out? I don't know whats going on, and this is scary! Removing dairy and fried foods from my diet maybe :(

Xoxo

Still Procrastinating

I thought I would be spending my time with much respect as I initially planned, before final paper for the semester s done. Lol. Typical.

Subject from the done semester gave out an assignment which require a presentation (obviously with the ppt), case study and an extensive written form of the presentation, if that make sense. Unfortunately, i don't really care if the assignment benefit me or not (which i really think that it don't), they were to be submitted after semester was over! Like 3 weeks after, making me really mad mad like negatively mad. I don't want to spend my time reading academic articles during the semester break (rarely got to experience long semester break, i believe this time would be the last one). So me start writing the bla bla before the final paper, because me initially plan to accompany opah for plus minus 1 month then start with lessons. But then on the due date, lecturer extendddd, saying must have this and that. Mad part 2, because she really don't reply to questions like it's not an exam or a quiz. It's an assignment duh. Whatever. I just don't want mind anymore. To be honest, i don't even understand the purpose it. Don't really care about carry marks (apparently, lol yes), hopefully me still get an A hahahaha. Finally on 7th August, me edited a bit of what I've submitted to at least pretend like I care. Feeling so much lighter after, but then I remember this particular lecturer often call out student when i don't know how to explain. So that's it.

Planned to do this and that. Much of it wasn't executed, at all. Read one of the book I bought before, during the 12th week of the semester, basically the chaotic week. Guess what. I forgot why I bought it in the first place. Really not my cup of tea. Author supporting LGBTQ, which me not a supporter of. I hated it when people, Malaysian especially trying to normalize supporting this kind of movement hm. Me got really turn-ed off from reading the book, read up to page 80 (if I remember it correctly). Ended up reading old books, one I've read many times before. Still giving me the same feeling all over hahaha. It's a pity, I don't think the author still write she only have written two novels :(

I have not register for Taekwondo lessons, just don't feel like going to register.

Have not resume mandarin classes too! Haha hope Ms Tan still remember me, and me still remember what I've learnt.

Raya Haji days before, so got so much beef in the freezer! Used them to try cooking lauk daging. So far i tried daging hitam, daging blackpepper, daging merah, daging paprik and daging bawang(?). Very fortunate, my family ate them without complaining much hehe. I think I got the hang of it, think so. Siblings are on diet, so I don't bake much (I want to be on diet too! How could they..). Even if i did bake, just make some cookies or heat gardenia chocolate muffin. Really don't want to admit this, but I am 6 kilograms away from being overweight......... am trying to lose about 7 kilograms, so my weight can be in the middle point (48 kilograms).

Only 3 tablets left for my antibiotic!

Xoxo

NEW BOOK!

Hi hello,

After years not posting on this page, im back. Bet no one still read blogs though hahaha. Been ages, time flies really, me no longer a 17 years old girl. Not rebellious as i used to. But still have bad thoughts whenever bla bla. One that seems like not going to change anytime soon, i still not quite good at explaining things like you should just know and understand what i'm talking about.


Update.

I'm a university student now, Faculty of Health Sciences. Surely will reveal course I'm taking after done with this degree. Hopefully can pass with flying colors, few more semesters to go before graduating! Currently on a semester break ((with the ongoing covid19)) I planned lots of things to do but eventually got cancelled because am trying to minimize the going out from home. Still scared of the virus like how can people be so brave to not wear their face mask. Glad it's now a compulsory to wear one in public or crowded places. Oh the plans, I'm trying to get into Taekwondo, glad there are many nearby studios and I have decided which one I'm going to hehe. Continue with mandarin lessons, which i have left for almost two months as I'm preparing for last semester final exam. Trying to get more active for strong bones and immune system.

ps: Ayah paid for some books I've been really wanting to read, thank you. Ecah suggested some too. Will read and write my thoughts. Hence the tittle. Lol not really, just an excuse because me still not good at making title.

That is it.
Guess from now on, this will be my platform to rant.
 

Xoxo

Last day as a highschool-er

Hii 😊

Tomorrow will be my last day of school hihi

As soon as I'm done with the chemistry exam..... 

Urmm..... kinda sad actually but it's not even a bad thing lol 

Gonna miss my friends classmates teachers and all kenalan hehe

Duduk rumah nk buat apa je.. 

Awkward. Haven't wrote anything since i don't know when.

By the way, im currently studying chemistry but got distracted by everything around me.

Wish me the best of luck! So that i can answer each and every question with ease 

I

Sambung study bye
And what i mean by last day as a student is last day as a student at smkbtk and I still want to sambung belajar 

Good year coming

Its okay its love babe

Okay my first post since last few weeks? Lepas delete semua post tu im coming back sebab asyik terfikir i should write dekat blog daripada tweet dekat twitter sebab no one knew my blog kan hehehe. Okay stop.

Farina Farah Adlina Farah Izzah and who else? Diorang nak pindah sebab keiginan dan kemahuan mereka untuk belajar di sekolah yang lebih baik aka berprestij berkualiti dan kawan yang lebih class kot. Tinggal la ku disini menyepi tanpa diri sendiri dalam diri ini. Takpe aku tunggu setiap kali cuti tengok korang on twitter ke idok. Post kat blog ke tidak..... Post ah post ah post ahh nak tau korang punya perkembangan macam mana. Ada mamat hensem ngorat korang kepe

Sebenarnya nak bagi something sblm korang blah tapi macam em em je sebab takde duit aku tengah pokai asyik beli buku je. Jaga diri jaga mata jangan rabun jangan buat dosa intai orang *duduk asrama en* nanti tumbuh ketumbit besar 

Goodluck uolls. Farina aku buat spec hehehehe tunggu kau confirm pegi sana baru aku pakai ye hehe sayang kau. Aaaa dah tak reti nak buat entry dah :(